still standing

I am in a time in my life where I feel like darts are being thrown at me from every which direction. I finally today realized that God won't stop them, because he is calling me to a total surrender. A total surrender of what I want and how I want my life to be. He is calling me to focus on him and only him and instead of surrendering I have been wearing myself out trying to dodge the darts. This morning I got flat on my face on my bedroom floor and asked the Lord to take it all. Something I wish I would do more often. It brought such peace to my day. I realized this morning that the only way to stay standing is to get flat on your face first!! After I did this I was able to stand back up in God's strength and not my own.